Feeling uninspired lately. I’ve said before that when an artist isn’t creating, then their soul feels like it’s dying. It’s torturous. My soul cringes at the stagnancy. My soul longs for that rush. That rush that makes you feel alive when you’ve come up with something absolutely beautiful to you. When you have sparkles in your eyes because your soul is glowing. I long for it. I’ve been too long without it. God help me find it again…
I will never know. It is so deep that it never ends.
I long to know why you would love such a sinner? Why would you want me in your presence? Why would you want me?
For this wicked heart you died and conquered death so I could be saved.
You sacrificed your life for me, this fleshly worldly heart that sins against thee over and over.
How can I even begin to know your love when it is so overwhelmingly evident that here on earth I will never be able to feel the deepest part of your love;
The richness of your love is unreachable for me
In this earthen body I am separated from you.
I thank God for your Holy Spirit that I may be able to sense even a drop of your being.
Describing you is like trying to grab water, when you think you’ve got it, it slips through and you become indescribable again.
All the beauty that we can experience will never measure up to the realm of which you are in.
Words are futile trying to describe you.
I could try for a thousand years and never be able to put all the pieces of your love for me together.
I cry tears of awe and joy and shame and gratefulness thinking about how you put yourself through torture for me, the one who can never give you the same amount of love in return. The unconditional love you have for me, there are no words, yet I still try to describe your love, your love is truly immeasurable…
I’m in awe
I’m in love
I’m in pieces
I wish I could give you more, but all that I can give you, is all yours to have
my best friend, my father, my protector, my healer, my maker, my teacher, my guide, my everything
Make me better, make me more like you, make me have your heart and your eyes and your spirit and your love
You have the keys to my heart through your song of love
Light another candle
Say another prayer
Place some more flowers at the crime scene
Tell the world we are actually safe
Lie after lie after lie after lie after lie
I suppose as long as they show empathy for the victims all is well, right? Ha!!! I laugh at the thought of how stupid Democratic liberals have become.
The sky is the limit.
Rules and laws are considered oppression.
I can do whatever I want no matter who it hurts.
Righteous anger against illegal aliens is blasphemy.
Freedom of speech means I can say whatever I want and consequences from those words or actions are suppression of my freedom.
People have lost all sense of COMMON SENSE.
Common sense is losing its place among most people. As the saying goes, “why isn’t common sense more common?”.
Open immigration is a catastrophe. The lax on immigration laws and refugees isn’t even the issue anymore. Judges and lawyers are actually fighting against the rules of common sense immigration. Calling the laws racist, unempathetic, phobic, outdated, unconstitutional, and frothing at mouth with many more ridiculous lies.
My concern is, will the madness stop, or is it only going to get worse? If things get better, then ok, we can ride it out, but if it gets worse
God help us….
Why are people not listening ?? Why are these people having to be slaughtered before their very eyes and they still look the other way? They still deny reality.
“Let them in!” They chant, “Christians for Muslims” they write on their poster boards, “We support refugees”, as if to spin it so that they are the only ones who feel bad for people trying to flee oppression.
I am sick and tired of this rhetoric that if you want to protect your country then you are a racist. You are an islamiphobe
People need to WAKE UP! The peace loving hippie liberals need to shut up and listen for once, they’re so busy preaching love and peace they can’t see the forest for the trees!
Peace and love are great, but let’s be real here, there cannot be total love and peace on this planet!!! If you believe that and you are an adult then you need to emotionally grow up! You’re stuck in an adolescent way of thinking….. there is evil on this planet and guess what evil wants to do, it wants to KILL you, it wants to destroy you, it lives in people, and therefore we cannot have a kumbaya lovey-dovey society. There is NO chance of a utopian society anywhere on this planet.
People are asleep
People do not want to see the evil for what it is. They make excuses for the evil that rapes and pillages, saying “they don’t have enough jobs and education, we need to be patient with them and help them assimilate.”
That’s bullshit, THEY DONT WANT TO ASSIMILATE!!!!! THEY DONT WANT YOUR SYMPATHY!!!!!! THEY ARE EVIL!!!!!!! ISLAM IS NOT A RELIGION OF PEACE!!!!!!
Our last president was a ISLAMIC SYMPATHISER!!!! If you can’t see that, then I pray for your spiritual eyes, because you are completely blind and need help with seeing reality. Our last president wanted to fundamentally transform America. Why would you want to fundamentally transform freedom?? I’ll tell you why, because you want the opposite, what’s the opposite of freedom? I’ll tell you, it’s oppression of the body and mind, and imprisonment of the spirit. It’s total control and one world order.
An American was killed yesterday in London, traveling with his wife for their 25th anniversary, and now his wife will forever have that as her celebration memory. An American was uselessly slaughtered and I AM ANGRY. I’m beyond angry. I am beyond furious. There are no words to describe how angry I am. I can only try and describe how I feel. I have had it with the complacency of our people. I have had it with the blind leading the blind. I have had it with the protestors thinking they are doing something good for humanity and they’re actually causing the opposite. I’ve had it with these so called leader celebrities chanting that they are proud to be nasty women. YOU ARE NOT A CHAMPION FOR WOMEN!!!! If you were you would be campaigning against what women have to go through in the Muslim communities. You would be championing for the oppressed and the women and children who are bought and sold into the sex slave business, which is alive and well and happening right here in the USA, in case you weren’t aware. If you were a champion for women you wouldn’t be making excuses for Islam. If you were a champion for freedom of religion you wouldn’t sit quietly while Christians prayer is being taken away from schools. If you were a champion for human rights you wouldn’t be ok with letting the total opposite, take over our country.
When you start writing about one subject and trail off into something else …
I have been taught, if you don’t go to a church, then you will start to fall away from Jesus. While I believe this can be true, I don’t believe it is an absolute truth.
The more I experience the “church life” the more I grow to hate it in what it has become.
Please hear me. I don’t think that all churches are bad, and that all people who go to one and serve in one, are bad. If you have convictions that a Christian must go to a church, that is an option available to you and I’m happy for you. However, I have come to a conclusion during this phase of my life, that I do not need a church to worship, have a relationship with, or be able to walk with Christ in a deep manner.
I’ve become very critical of churches and their purposes these days, because I have had this epiphany that it is turning itself into a business.
You’ve got your head people in place. Your buyers buying. And there’s a constant demand for what you’re selling.
•CEO and Sales Pitcher = Pastor
•Crewman and Salesmen = Deacons, Elders, Leaders of the church
•Daycare Crew = Children’s church
•Consumers = Congregation who donates at least 10% of their profits or earnings and a few will volunteer their time for extra needs
I realize this type of thinking can cause people to get in an uproar and think I’m speaking near blasphemy, but think about it for a little while. I realize it makes you uncomfortable; it did me too when I started seeing and thinking this.
Ask yourself these questions to help yourself determine whether or not your church is really working at its absolute best for the kingdom.
1. Does the majority of our church congregation get together more than just Sundays or Wednesday evenings?
2.Does the majority get together somewhere else outside of the church building, more than a few times a year?
3.Does our church have programs for the widowed, orphans, or poverty stricken people of our town?
4. Does our pastor have any other job to bring himself income, besides to preach on sundays?
5.Do I know that if I was struggling with an embarrassing sin, I know of at least 5 people, that I could tell it to and they would not judge me in a way that would make me feel unloved and that they wouldn’t blab it to someone else?
These are just some basic questions that should define what a church should have. You can dispute me all day, and that’s fine, but I’m finding it harder and harder to find a church that has these simple principles in place.
My point to #1 and #2
I don’t care how busy you say your life is, your Christian church family should be just as important as anything else in your life and if you’re not spending time together outside of church, out in the real world, in people’s real day to day lives, how can you get to know each other? How can you grow together as brothers and sisters in Christ? How can you say you really care? Many Christians in church don’t even really have anyone outside of those church walls that they can relate with when it comes to being a Christian. Most of them have non-Christian family members they have to deal with, and non-Christian coworkers who they have to deal with. If you’re of a family that is mostly Christian and your friends are too and you grew up all cozy and comfy in a great Christian church , well let me tell you something, you are blessed beyond what you can even realize, because I personally know what it is to grow up without that. People in your congregations are starving to have more fellowship time with like minded believers and yet all they can find are the ones at 10:30 Am 6:30 Pm and 7 Pm. And guess what, they have to sit and listen the whole time, it’s not an actual time of fellowship. It’s worship and lesson time. What do real families do that make them bond? They take trips together. They argue with each other. They forgive each other. They eat together. And they pray together. And many other things. Now, if a church congregation and the leaders of it, can’t make these things a priority, then I know, that the love for the congregation is not a priority. And Christ would not be pleased about it.
My point to #3
If your church does not have financial programs or some type of help for, the drug addicted, widows, orphans, and the poverty stricken people of your area, then your church does not have Christs love for its people. You have a missions program? Great for you! You have a kids bible night throughout the school year? Great for you! You have a men’s bible study night on Thursday’s and you take a love offering for the pastor? Great for you. But what about the people of your community who need your Help!!! They need to know you care! By actually lending a helping hand and letting them know that they can come to you and ask for help with groceries or help on their light bill, or someone to watch their kids while they go to work. I could go on and on with all the things the churches could be and should be helping with, but they’re not.
My point to #4
This issues gets a lot of people all in a big-harry-fit. Lots of people will defend their pastor who’s only income is what the congregation donates to him, by saying “well he works for the Lord so it’s only right we pay him for it, he deserves it”, “if he had to go out and work a job through the week how would he be able to give a good sermon on Sunday?” This is all bologna…… every Christian that does as the Bible says, do all things for the Lord, is working for the Lord. An honest pastor will get his special reward in heaven, from the king, not from us. Most pastors make more money than at least half of their congregation!!! Most of them drive a better vehicle than half of ther congregation. And a lot of them have stay at home wives who has five kids to feed and raise. That money should be going to the people of the community who have NOTHING! And don’t give me that bull about, “well what about keeping the church lights on and water and landscaped and building repairs…” I’ve never claimed that the church building itself doesn’t need financial help to keep running, because it does, I know it does. But for the pastor and/or his family to live off of the congregations offerings??? It’s obsured.
My point to #5
It’s pretty self explanatory. If you can’t trust at least five people in your church, with a confession you need to make or a secret you need help with, then it’s either you have trust issues or the more likely answer, your church has untrustworthy people in it.
I know that this does not describe all churches, but it does describe a lot of them. Being from a pretty small town of about 6 thousand people, 3 stoplights, a non-super Walmart, you’d think that the majority of our churches would be good ones, but sadly there are not. It’s no wonder our society is starting to scream “tax the churches”. Why shouldn’t they when their congregations donations aren’t going to where they should be anyway?
I believe it is a crisis that has been sweeping the nation for a while and it’s time to stand up and do something about it.
Is anyone else tired of celebrities speaking for them?? The latest is that Bruce Springsteen tells Ausies at a concert that he’s embarrassed to be an American because of Trump … I’m a lot of things, but embarrassed to be an American is not one of them!
I could be a freakin public/socializing-speaking genius if I could speak well and I wouldn’t be so misunderstood all the time, but no, these beautiful words and thoughts stay trapped in my brain.
I’ve been called an enigma, I’ve been described in ways that I know is not who I truly am, people rarely see into the true me, because my actions have rarely expressed my intelligence, my thoughts rarely make it out of my mouth and if they do they’re so discombobulated I sound the opposite of knowing what I’m talking about. I suppose writing is the only way I can communicate and make some sort of sense to others.
I wish I could speak well. That is a gift I was not blessed with…